Well now i think that the Universe , God or whatever is there is conspiring against me , my knee injury is getting worse now I can’t walk and tomorrow is my electronics exam i have to go to college but no one can drive me and i have to walk to the bus which would not be a problem if things were normal but now I can not stand upright nor even walk so I probably will be late or wont even make it in time for the exam.
My GF who is really precious to me and i love her more than anything is probably moving to Canada because her parents will probably lose their jobs and that means that I might never see her again it really sucks because i can’t do a thing about it and i really want to help them.
Not to say that everything that i have struggled to achieve in the past few years is falling apart first when i started college i had to quit my archery training when i just started to make it (became national champion), and after that i started failing some exams in the first year of college which bummed me out quite a lot but i did not give up then i started the new year of college with optimism i also passed some of my old exams and thought life had finally taken a turn for the better for me bud God was I wrong the problems would only multiply for me so around New Year my family threatened to fall apart , latter i failed most of my exams and got sick almost died and now basically nothing seems positive anymore but I wont give up, I wont give in, I have to stand up and fight with everything I got cause there is no other way for me.
As I said at the beginning I have that feeling as if God wants to punish me for something I did in my past life, damn I must have been Adolf Hitler in my past life for him to punish me like that. I hope he becomes merciful in the end.