The Return of the Cunt

So here I am after a month or so of being inactive, and the reason for that would be my studies which took too much time and effort so that I couldn’t focus on anything else in my life but I’m back now.

Anyhow a lot happened in the last month from me passing most of my exams to my bro comming back from out of town. It took most of my strength and focus to pas my exams , I had to study basicaly from dusk till dawn and from dawn tll dusk but I eventually made it. But what realy pissed me off was my college “friends” ripping on me for studying too much and being total dicks in the process. You see they think college is som competition that they need to be better than anyone else  so they try to throw me under the bus and sabotage me but they failed , I proved to be to determened and focused on my work that they could not brake me as hard as they tried. Well I learned a big leasson in this college year and that would be  ” Do not trust anyone there because they would sell their own mother to pass their tests and be one place higher on that list”.
Damn two faced pricks. But the good thing is over the past mont and a half I have learned so much about people about myself and my limits and next semester  I am going to turn them against each other get some popcorn and watch the fireworks. So now I am gona focus on myself go to a gym and workout and enjoy the rest of the summer.


Never invited


I often call Francis to go out and drink or to get some coffee but he rarely accepts. He always responds with:”I have some previous arrangements”. But he has stopped inviting me to go out with him and his friends.
It seems like I was good to him only when we needed me to study with…

I am really sad because I thought that we had a true friendship.

I should just go and drink by myself!


gold-in-my-eyes asked:

Hey, i know bullys suck and do affect you where you find yourselves in there presence but judo is the perfect place for you with them then! judo teaches of the weaker beating the strong or physically opposing by using their power against them. judo is a place where you can excel and overcome them leaving them jealous and in awe of you. please don't let such petty people keep you away from amazing opportunities. there is a lot of respect in judo so no one would stand for them bullying you. x

Thank you for the friendly advice :D

No End in Sight

 Well now i think that the Universe , God or whatever is there is conspiring against me , my knee injury is getting worse now I can’t walk and tomorrow is my electronics exam i have to go to college but no one can drive me and i have to walk to the bus which would not be a problem if things were normal but now I can not stand upright nor even walk so I probably will be late or wont even make it in time for the exam.

 My GF who is really precious to me and i love her more than anything is probably moving to Canada because her parents will probably lose their jobs and that means that I might never see her again it really sucks because i can’t do a thing about it and i really want to help them.
 Not to say that everything that i have struggled to achieve in the past few years is falling apart first when i started college i had to quit my archery training when i just started to make it (became national champion), and after that i started failing some exams in the first year of college which bummed me out quite a lot but i did not give up then i started the new year of college with optimism i also passed some of my old exams and thought life had finally taken a turn for the better for me bud God was I wrong the problems would only multiply for me so around New  Year my family threatened to fall apart , latter i failed most of my exams and got sick almost died and now basically nothing seems positive anymore but I wont give up, I wont give in, I have to stand up and fight with everything I got cause there is no other way for me.

As I said at the beginning I have that feeling as if God wants to punish me for something I did in my past life, damn I must have been Adolf Hitler in my past life for him to punish me like that. I hope he becomes merciful in the end.  

Bad luck strikes back

So my bad luck streak continues and there is no end in sight. I was studying today for about four hours in the morning and in the afternoon for some 3 hours and i have not made any progress and i got three days until the exam so basically I am screwed, and to put a cherry on top of the cake of misery that is my life I hurt my knee so badly I cannot walk and the pain is getting worse and worse. Looks like I’m the new Bad Luck Brian.